i miss my father...

Last 24 March ago, my siblings, my mother and i were gathered to discuss about my father properties that left to us..before this matter will be discuss formally and switched to us by pembahagian harta pusaka on 29 March 2010.

today, when i stared at the slow rotating blades of fan, in the warm humid room i remembered my father..i miss him...really..really miss him.. ;-( ..added by songs Wildan Di Pusara Bonda from my philips headphone, it really touching my heart and make few drops flow down on my cheek..Al-Fatihah to my father..

my father home..

ayah..ampunkan aku..ayah sokmo suruh org picit2 ayah tp org sokmo picit ayah dengan malas2

ayah selalu panggil..hajar marilah teman ayah..tp lps ayah pggl byk kali baru org g dekat ayah

ayah suruh mak gerak org pkul 2-3 pg teman ayah, tp org wat2 tido..

ayah...maaf ayah...

The songs below, i dedicated to my beloved father..

my father..Haji Muda bin Abd Rahman..

Hari yang dilalui kini tak seindah semalam

Bintang yang bersinar sudah tiada lagi

Mentari yang memancar kini semakin suram

Bayangan wajahmu sudah tiada lagi

Apa yang harus ditangisi

Penyesalan sudah tiada gunanya

Biar airmata darah ku tumpahkan

Tak bisa mengundur masa

Kini ayahanda tiada lagi

Apa yang ada hanya secebis kenangan

Ditabir seribu penyesalan

Kerana belum sempat ku menabur budi

Kau pergi menghadap ilahi

Oh ayahanda..

Ampunilah segala dosa anakmu ini

Bukan sengaja aku mengasarimu

Bukan jua ingin ku sakiti hatimu

Apakan daya diri ini tak terdaya

Menahan gelora membara

Akhirnya kau tersiksa sendiri

ayahanda andai ku punya waktu

Ingin ku abadikan diri kepadamu

Kerana kasih yang kau curahkan

Belum tentu terbalas

Dengan curahan budi yang kusiramkan

For those who still has their parents, please treat your parents well

if your parents ask to come back home, plzz do so

if you can't return home, plzz always call and talked to them

if your parents ask to picit them, plzz do so

if your parents advice you, plzz accept their advice

if your parents ask to something, plzz don't reluctance to do it

If your parents make you repeat a words many times, don't get angry

if your parents always want to know everything you do, let them know, don't feel in control by them

if your parents is unable, you do not have to feel sad, unfortunate or incompetent in front of their old age and of their state

you just to stay near them, try to understand their live, to make you best as their did at your birth

plzz..help your parents walk in this life better, help them to end their life with love and patient

the only way that their need to thank you from it, it is a smile and a lot of love from you..

We Love You..Father and Mother..

"Ya Allah! Ampunilah bagiku segala dosaku dan juga dosa dua ibu bapaku dan kasihanilah mereka keduanya sebagaimana mereka memelihara dan mendidikku di masa kecil. Ya Allah..selembut tangannya membelai diriku dan pengorbanannnya mendidik dan mengasuhku, balaslah ia dengan memberi kebahagian kepada mereka di dunia dan akhirat..Ya Allah sebagaimana mereka menyinari hidup ini, sinarilah hidup mereka, terangilah jalan hidupku dan mereka dengan kasih dan sayangMu dan lindungilah mereka..panjangkanlah usia mereka agar mereka terus dapat beribadat kepadaMu..Ya Allah tempatkanlah mereka di dalam RahmatMu.."

to read more about my father, click here from my brother's website